message to you LOVE

to love:

somewhere in the corner of this world i know you're there. living life the way you think it is. making decisions that somehow changes your life but still leads you to me. i live on the fact that someday we will see each other. that somehow, our roads are intertwined.

there's no need for me to run nor hide. i know i must move forward. its okay to look back at the past as long as it gives me the fuel to move on. but if looking back gives me the reason to overhaul, then i must choose to drive my life at the fastest speed as possible.

i may be a stupid to many and a pitiful to few but its never been my intention to be understood by them. and in my young age, i may only know you for a short period of time and there's still so many things i must know about you, yet i choose to trust and follow my heart. that even if i can't see you, i can't be with you, and i can't even hug and kiss you, you still exist. that your existence in my life may be unseen by others, i dont need them to see, my own eyes is already enough.

so what i'm saying now is see you when i see you. i will not promise anything to you but i will promise everything to myself. i want you now but i know i'm not ready. i still need time to assure that i can be capable of handling everything to you . as we wait for that special day to come, i give you the freedom to taste life and to listen to the music of your heartbeat. and as to me, i will live and enjoy my life to the fullest.

so see you later love, in the right moment and in the right place...... <3



the grip is too tight, i wanted you to let go
seconds left until i leave you
your eyes that i love so much
now i hate with every single tear drop
the words you used to say
now it hurts me more and more this way
tomorrow is unknown
yesterday is already told
all that's left is today
today...the moment you betray me........


the EX effect

love is a cycle full of struggles towards fulfilling the dream of true happiness. when you choose to love someone means taking the risk. it's like gambling at its highest stake. you loose, you win. nothing's definite. everything's unpredictable. that's what i learned and what i called the EX effect...

in another note, while i was stumbling in the net, i found this... DIOSKO!!!!!



my back is so painful today. no, not just my back but my entire body hurts. i had a very fun day today. the rain itself turned to be the highlight of this event.

my childhood friend invited me to her "thanksgiving party", she is now a license pharmacist. congrats bez donna =) ...of course, i was, well all of our friends were ,so proud of her. it was held at a private rest house of her aunt. today is a rainy day but the show must go on. i never planned to go swimming but as we were riding back home, the rain just poured itself so hard.

an invitation i could not care to resist.....

some of the photos before the rain....

i will call it a day guys..i need to rest and sleep...coz' its manic monday tomorrow...

be happy =)


first heartache in work

i was a bit sad when i found out my new schedule last monday. i really forgot that last week was alteration week. so students had the chance to change tutors. we get along just fine. i will not stop them if they wanted to change me but they should've given me a clue.

everytime we see each other at the hallways, it made me feel so awkward. i tried so hard to act as if it was nothing to me. but deep inside of me it meant a lot. i wanted to ask them why. but i know i will never be able to. this is how things work in this job.

i must and always will remind myself that i am here to work, and my job is to help and teach not to become their friend. attachment will only lead to another heartache. but how can i avoid it? i could not hide the fact that i am a filipino: kind-hearted and passionate in work.



i just wanted to say happy father's day to you papa.

i know i am not that expressive to what i feel. as what mama always says, i am the complete carbon copy of you! hehe.. maybe, that's true but i am a modified type already.

** i don't hold grudge against you for passing your lack of talent in music to me.

** i am happy that i am skilled just like you.

** thank you for the height.

** thank you for the terrific sense of humor that i bestowed from you.

** i still love you even if you won't understand the thought of having a "night life".

** i still love you even if you'll have "videoke" for hours and hours at home. it feels like torture to those who listen.

** i am blessed to have someone like you who never go home drunk.

** i am blessed to have you whose so faithful to mama.

** i am happy to tease you a lot.

** i'm sorry if i was too impatient to teach you about computer.

** i enjoyed having unnecessary fight with you it only means you cared for me.

since i grew up without you by my side, i really don't know much about you. all i know is that you are an important person to me even though i can't personally tell you this.

i love you and i always will.....


catching up

i know i haven't been posting lately. was busy for the past two weeks. i thought being unemployed means a lot of time free. as for me, i was so caught up with lots of personal stuff to do. but at least i wasn't bored yet. my aunt came home last week from her 8month study at AIT in thailand, and all the pasalubong was intended for me. a lot of chocolates and tons of clothes from her travels..hahha..i just can't enough of it. i went super-gaga from seeing the clothes, my aunt told me she could not comprehend most of the style but bought it anyway, trusting i have all the understanding and courage to wear it..haha..she's good though.

and last saturday was jeff''s 21st birthday. he had a small party at home. i love that guy from the bottom of my heart. we shared the same dreaded dream--to become shinigami-..haha..

well, last monday i started my job-hunting adventure. i passed two application forms- one for a general transcriptionist and the other for a Korean english teacher. then, i headed toward excelasia to avail in their free call center training. i passed the initial interview for excelasia and will start my training on june 17. and this morning, i received a text msg from "the general transcriptionist one", i'll be having my exam tomorrow. hayyy..finger's crossed guys, i hope i'll make it. =)

by the way, eventhough was kinda busy lately. i still find time to unwind. i played with the photos i captured during jeff bday...