message to the broken-hearted

dear broken-hearted,

don't think that no one understands how you feel. in fact, most people around you had that feeling too. its either you are just one step ahead of them or its not yet there time. always remember that feeling pain after loosing someone you love means you really do love at all. because if you feel nothing after loosing them, you're a one piece of an asshole and deserves to be perished in this world.

sometimes, life brings us pain so that we will learn. as what the quote says, "the pain will never go away, but you will learn to live with it". don't dwell too much in depression island. don't spent most of your time thinking of what if's. for what if's will only make the worst of you. just be open, accept the pain. live with it. but not to the extend you loose control. just acknowledged it so that next time you'll be stronger than who you are.

give time to yourself. no one would love you so unconditionally but yourself. no one else will be there when everything falls down your ass but yourself. start to love yourself back and see the difference it makes in your life and to those people around you.

life is not all about getting what you want but making the best of what you have. you may lost your battle today. but did you ever realized that there are battles not worth to be fighting for? sometimes, it is better to let fate or destiny or even luck to play the game. instead of moping around why not try to assess yourself. try to analyzed what had gone wrong, if you think you did something bad, make it right next time.

don't let anger bring the worst of you. yes, you do have the right to be mad and be angry to the person who hurted and played games to your heart. you wanted that person to suffer the same way as you are. but being bitter would not help you anything. the better way to deal with it is so stand on your butt and make that person see that inspite his/her absence in your life, you can still do so much more. you are still someone worth to be loved. and think, that there is still someone who is best fit to love you, he/she was just lost because he/she doesn't know how to read a map.

but doing rebounce relationship isn't the solution of your heart blowing problem. it will just aggravate the horny and bad side of you. what's more honoring is to heal your broken-heart by yourself. and by that, you'll come out fresh, better, and most of all a learned person by heart.

i only had two relationships in my life and both really failed. i almost had a third one, that's what i thought. i thought the third one was sincere, but it was all games for him. if i would have eaten the the bait and did not have emotional control, that would made me fall into a mistress. yes, i liked him so much and was starting to love him but when he gets what he wants (it's up to you to think what he wants) everything just changes. he was just a man who loves to have side dishes although he already has the main course. he made me believed i was special. he treated me as if our relationship is more than friends. he made me happy. he made me feel i was important to him. he made me love him although he was completely and solely belongs to his girlfriend. now, here i am alone and trying to fix everything that was broken in me. see, we may not have the same situation but everything falls into one:

what hurts us most is the thought of not being loved by the person whom we love

now, do you still think no one understands and feels the same way as you are?

much love and hope,
krisler